Almost 2 years I have not worked at Starbucks.
Almost 2 years I have not been able to take on photo clients.
2 years of pain.
2 years of not knowing what is going on inside my body or how to fix it.
Needless to say, I have been in a bit of a Funk.
Thankfully my school district allowed my work restrictions, so I am able to work in the theatre with my kids!
I really would have been lost if I could not have done that. I think it saved my sanity!
I went on a date with this guy. We clicked and decided to make it a thing for real.
And as happy as he makes me, I cannot rely on him for my happiness.
I am still in a Funk.
I am discouraged. I am feeling inadequate. I am feeling broken.
I am antsy and want to create, but don’t know what to do - I am limited.
And I have to remember, only physically.
My mind is not limited. My creativity is not limited… just… bottled at the moment.
I have a great group of newly found friends who are all amazingly creative. We chat about what we are doing and give each other boosts when need be. They are an established group, and I am just finding my way into them, and I enjoy it.
We all express our creative talents differently, so it is helpful to see what they are doing and it is nice to cheer each other on. Eventually I started thinking about projects I had started and never followed through on. Some really good and fun ideas. I decided to pull them out, dust them off and share them with the world.
This is one of them.
In 2014 I was hired to photograph a wedding. The couple wanted to do a sparkler send off. I had never photographed sparklers before, so while researching how to pull that off, I came across this image from GSquaredWeddings
I thought, why not try to do my own take on their image. It was purely for my own use.
In the lull after wedding season, I looked at these images and hoped they might inspire more creativity- but I didn’t know how to channel it. I felt bad that I used someone else’s idea so closely. It was cool, I had fun, and I still felt bad. I never showed these to anyone. Now, looking back, I realize: The idea was borrowed, yes, but I for sure have my own take and style on it. It is not a carbon copy- my eye shows through. (What’s that old saying “imitation is the sincerest form of flattery?”) I was stretching my wings and learning something. I didn’t make money off it, I have not tried to pass it as my own idea- I am giving credit to G Squared now.
I’m good. This was good. I am pleased.
People take inspiration from anywhere they can find it. This was mine at that moment. I hope that in sharing these images, I can find that spark again. (pun intended)
So, here we are on a fresh start to get the funk out - Sparking inspiration and creativity!
What are some things that inspire you?