It is a constant evolution of me. I am always learning and growing.
I like to think I take Mr. Feeny's advice seriously.
I try to create that world for myself and others by doing GOOD.
The things we think are important when we are young are maybe not what we realize are important as we grow older.
I've been through some pretty shitty things. (see blog post CAUTION: CURSING AHEAD)
And I have learned so much about myself and what is important to me:
Like how to trust my instincts and not accept anything less than amazing.
(and that does not mean perfection, amazing comes in different ways, levels, volumes and tones.)
I am learning to stand up for myself- To stand my ground and not let others push me around.
I have learned to smile again.
Much of this is I can thank my students for. They are my heart and soul. My life.
The tattoo on my "shooting" arm (penned by one of my students) is a joke for clients to see, as well as a reminder for all to SMILE.
Most famously from Romeo and Juliet (shocking) It breaks down to mean:
When an evil cannot be overcome, it must be endured.
I have endured, and made it through to the other side.
I am learning to love who I am - because I am fighting like hell to become ME!
So when my students talked me into singing in their showcase this last December,
I knew what song I HAD to sing:
A Change In Me from Disney's Beauty and the Beast
(despite being nervous as fuck- because performing in front of your students is bloody nerve racking -especially since I had not sung in YEARS)
I have talked a lot about my theatre background, but have not actually shared much of it.
So, here's a little taste!
(I worked on this song about 6 years ago, and I can promise you, it is a "different song" now than it was then.)
I don't even remember the last time I was as happy as I was that night.
I was home.
While HOME is tinged with bitterness and reluctant acceptance-
A Change In Me is honest. Hopeful.
Clear eyed and with an open heart.
Just like me.
And now for silly photos of some of my students!!
Left: everyone who participated in showcase in December
Right: a group of seniors (and one sophomore) at their last show before graduation
I can tell you this, some things will never change:
My loyalty to my friends (I'm a mamma bear, don't mess with them!)
My ability to laugh at myself - and hopefully make you laugh, too!
My endless FRIENDS quotes.
My love of avocados.
My love of selfies #sorrynotsorry
My love of shoes!
And My Love. (in general, for all things)
the shoes pictured above are a dream come true for me!
RUBY RED SLIPPERS!!
(the Naomi by SJP Collection from Bloomingdale's)